As I was reading the material and watching the videos on intimacy I started to think about how the worship with my community is not actually that intimate. Or at least the group of students that I lead. This made me somewhat sad as I realized intimacy with God in worship is really what it’s all about. That the end result of our worship is to connect deeply and spiritually with out Maker.
However, it also made me want to start working towards helping create that intimate feeling with God in my student community. As someone is not deeply emotional in how I interact with people, leading in a way that helps create this sense of intimacy is somewhat foreign to me. But nevertheless I am realizing that it is 100% essential to a real time of worship. As to how I will start helping this along I am somewhat unsure but I know I need to be relating to people on a personal level and picking songs that speak individually to people.
This study also made me reflect on those times in my life where I have experienced those times of intimacy with God in a worship setting. And it made me realize how hungry I am for those experiences. The genuineness and reality are overwhelming and intoxicating (in a good way!).
As for integrity, I feel this is a bigger part of our worship experience. God has blessed our community with many people who have a lot of integrity and deeply want to serve the Lord. Integrity isn’t something that is easily visible all of the time but it is something that as you get to know someone you realize is either a large part of their relationship with God or not.
In my life as a leader I am constantly striving to live a life of integrity. And that often means giving things up. That is a part of everyone’s integrity but being a leader has pushed me to set the bar even higher and to try and be somewhat of an example.
I apologize that this is way to long but I had a lot to say!